Jodoh

 Aku suka baca blog orang tapi selalu lupa nak follow sebab aku prefer jadi silent reader je. Seronok baca blog orang lain. From that, kita dapat figure out new things, benda-benda yang aku tak pernah tahu, and macam-macam. And paling best about blogging is, ia banyak mematangkan aku. Aku suka baca things macam ,alah you know, pasal life, love, what it is all about and blablabla. Lately aku memang suka baca entry yang jiwang karat because these few days i am brutally broken and i don't mind showing it. Semalam aku ada view satu blog and baca satu entri ni, it is about JODOH ? alah jodoh.

Kadang-kadang i wish i knew who my jodoh would be. I wonder who the lucky  person is. Kadang-kadang aku harap jodoh aku secool Shaheizy Sam ke, semacho Shamsul Yusof ke, or paling-paling pun seganteng Adi Putra. Aku dah jatuh cinta dengan kehandsome-an dan ketough-an beliau lepas tengok cerita KL Gangster. Awww. Okay dah menyimpang,

                                           

Okay, aku bukan nak cakap pasal tu. Aku pernah sayangkan seseorang with all my heart. Dia cinta pertama aku. Thinking of how we first met memang kelakar and sangat comel. Semuanya secara kebetulan and it is so unplanned. He taught me things yang aku tak pernah tahu. Trust, loyalty, respect, to give and take, and semua nya about love. I never knew what LOVE really is until i met him. Our love last for 5 years. 5 YEARS. satu tempoh yang aku tk jangka kan. So, sepanjang 5 tahun, we had a lot of memories together, the sweet one, the bitter one. we fought A LOT but still, we held on. Well, a couple who fight the most is the couple who are the most deeply in love because they care about every single thing though benda tu hal kecil je pun. Aku percaya tu. Sebab tak kira macam mana pun kitorang gaduh, besar ke teruk ke, sayang aku kat dia tak pernah berkurang, not even a bit :') 5 tahun memang lama. We even pernah terberangan nak kahwin lah bagai. Well, bila couple dah lama , mesti punya ada terfikir sampai ke tahap tu. Alah korang pun sama kann.

But yeah, kita hanya merancang tapi tuhan yang tentukan semuanya. Our love doesn't end up well. Dah almost sebulan kitorang putus. And ini yang paling lama kitorang putus and rasanya the chances untuk get back together memang almost zero. And dengar cerita, dia dah ada orang baru pun. Nevermind, i am happy for him :') Aku masih sayangkan dia. Sangat sayangkan dia. Tapi aku redha. I can accept the fact that we don't belong together. The pain is still inside here, but sooner or later, the pain will be gone leaving a scar that will forever be there. Mencintai itu tidak semestinya memiliki. You can still love someone eventhough you cannot own him. Well, same here. I don't know how long it would take for me untuk padamkan semua pasal dia,kenangan-kenangan, and every single detail pasal dia. It may takes a month, a year maybe, or maybe forever. 

Apa yang aku nak cakap is, bila bercinta don't expect something yang terlalu tinggi. Be realistic. You don't know what is in the future. Ramai couple yang sedih sangat sampai ada yang nak bunuh diri bila cinta tak kesampaian. Jangan macam tu. It is not the end of the world. Mungkin Allah dah tuliskan kita jalan hidup yang lebih baik kan ? Look at the bright side. Be positive. Memang. Breaking up hurts like hell. Aku tak nafikan tu. Aku sendiri dah pernah rasa and masih rasa tapi Alhamdulillah, i get stronger each day. Aku dah boleh terima semua yang berlaku. And people, Come to think of it,  we all have bad times, we all have problems , but do we have to sacrifice all the good times for it ? it worth for nothing. Yang dah pergi biarkan pergi. Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita. Bila aku sedih, i always bear in mind that life isn't a fairytale. You can't expect your love end up macam Cinderella and his prince, Snow white and his charming prince,or kisah Si Rapunzel and her lover. Cinta juga boleh jadi macam The Princess and The Frog or Beauty and The Beast. So unthinkable but yet so possible :)

Renung-renungkan :)